153. NOTE TO SELF – KEEP BUILDING!
(The Faith Forum Series – Batch 3)
No matter what, keep building.
I had to remind myself of this today, as I felt a bit down in the dumps because my situation had seemingly remained the same for so many years.
I wanted to throw in the towel, to give up. Nobody seemed to care and everybody had seemingly already declared me a failure. I was hurting so much inside, had been screaming for so long for help but nobody heard my cries. I wanted to be a success so bad but kept feeling like a colossal mess and failure.
Yet, although tempted to just give up and sit in a corner and feel sorry for how my life had turned out thus far and because I did not have the power of myself to change it and was not sure exactly why Jesus had not yet stepped in to do so, I knew I had to keep building.
Rome wasn’t built in a day but it was eventually built. Nobody has the power to get God to show up exactly when they want him to but he does show up in his own divine timing. Ask Lazarus.
I knew in my heart that although there was much I did not understand about my life story, God was still in control and on the throne. His power remained limitless and he could flip my script at anytime, if he desired.
I just had to keep on, keeping on.
With this in mind, I wrote:
Tired? Keep building. Weary? Keep building.
Fed up? Keep building. Afraid? Keep building.
Lonely? Keep building. Ignored? Keep building.
Deserted? Keep building. Unappreciated? Keep building.
Belittled? Keep building. Ridiculed? Keep building.
Criticized? Keep building. Misunderstood? Keep building.
Disliked? Keep building. Hated? Keep building.
Not forgiven? Keep building. Hurting? Keep building.
Sad? Keep building.
And when the Lord changes your script…Keep praising.
As I close, may I remind you (and myself) that Galatians 6:9 states: “And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.”
This work that I’m doing, which started on Facebook in 2018 and continued here on this Website, some people think to be nothing useful and a complete waste of time. They’ve dismissed it, thinking that God could never use me to do anything significant or worthwhile. This discouragement has come from even some family members, making you feel that you should not go on and that you should just give up what you’re doing.
They have an idea of what your life should look like and what you should be doing and they want you to do what they want you to do, not necessarily what God has called you to.
Yet, I KNOW what God has placed inside me and when he causes the hearts of his children to be stirred up to do the work he ordained for them to do before the foundation of the world, NOBODY but God, if he so desires, can stop them. Support or no support therefore, even on days when the discouragement is strong, they will continue to build, even if others think that their time should be better spent elsewhere and that they should just stop.
I will keep my eyes on Jesus Christ, block out the voice of the naysayers, the critics and those who do nothing but discourage and attack me with their words because the enemy is using them to try to derail me and KEEP BUILDING.
Sometimes, the verbal attacks are downright abusive, people seeing you as nothing more than their punchbag and a worthless dog, them having the right to insult you, to let you know that whatever you do is not good enough, that you are a nobody and that how you feel and when you hurt at their verbally and psychologically abusive treatment, it doesn’t matter. They even try to make you feel guilty and to surround you with a great wave of discouragement. All of this is calculated by the enemy to get you to give up in despair and to stop building but by the grace of almighty God, I will not. The good Lord who knows my heart and who gave me the work in the first place, will be the Judge of what I build, not man. I WILL CONTINUE.
(Written on 27th August, 2019, adjusted thereafter) (SCROLL DOWN FURTHER TO SEE ADDENDUM BELOW VIDEO)
I would like to add to this Article that about four months after I wrote this, I believe God led me to a song on YouTube which I had never heard before. It is my view that he usually gives me a song as a year is about to end and for 2019, the song was: GREAT WORK by Brian Courtney Wilson. Check it out in the link provided below or just type it in on YouTube. The words were so timely.
On 31st December, 2014, (five (5) years before I wrote the above Article), I felt the need after meditating on the scripture with Nehemiah and the wall the Israelites were trying to rebuild in the face of enemies, to write it down under headings, which I did, as follows:
(A) – NEHEMIAH VIEWS THE WALL
“Then went I up in the night by the brook and viewed the wall…And the rulers knew not whither I went, or what I did; neither had I as yet told it to the Jews, nor to the priests, nor to the nobles, nor to the rulers, nor to the rest that did the work.
Then I said unto them, “Ye see the distress that we are in, how Jerusalem lieth waste and the gates thereof are burned with fire: come and let us BUILD UP THE WALL of Jerusalem that we be no more a reproach.” Then I told them of the hand of my God which was good upon me; as also the king’s words that he had spoken unto me. And they said, “Let us rise up and BUILD.” So they strengthened their hands for this good work.
But when Sanballat the Horonite and Tobiah the servant, the Ammonite and Geshem the Arabian heard it, they laughed us to scorn and despised us… Then answered I them and said unto them, “the God of heaven, he will prosper us: therefore we his servants will arise and BUILD: but ye have no portion, nor right, nor memorial, in Jerusalem.” (Nehemiah 2:15-20)
(B) – SANBALLAT AND TOBIAH LAUGH AT NEHEMIAH’S EFFORTS
“But it came to pass, that when Sanballat heard that we BUILDED THE WALL, he was wroth and took great indignation and mocked the Jews. And he spake before his brethren and the army of Samaria and said, “What do these feeble Jews? Will they fortify themselves? Will they sacrifice? Will they make an end in a day? Will they revive the stones out of the heaps of the rubbish which are burned?”
Now Tobiah the Ammonite was by him and he said, “Even that which they BUILD, if a fox go up, he shall even break down their stone wall.
Hear, O our God; for we are despised: and turn their reproach upon their own head and give them for a prey in the land of captivity: And cover not their iniquity and let not their sin be blotted out from before thee: for they have provoked thee to anger before the BUILDERS.” (Nehemiah 4:1-5)
(C) – THE WORK CONTINUES AND CONSPIRACIES ARE HATCHED
“So BUILT WE THE WALL; and all the wall was joined together unto the half thereof: for the people had a mind to work.
But it came to pass, that when Sanballat and Tobiah and the Arabians and the Ammonites and the Ashdodites heard that THE WALLS OF JERUSALEM WERE MADE UP and that THE BREACHES BEGAN TO BE STOPPED, then were they very wroth. And conspired all of them together to come and to fight against Jerusalem and to hinder it. Nevertheless we made our prayer unto our God and set a watch against them day and night, because of them….
And I looked and rose up and said unto the nobles and to the rulers and to the rest of the people, “Be not ye afraid of them: remember the Lord, which is great and terrible and fight for your brethren, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your houses.”
And it came to pass, when our enemies heard that it was known unto us and God had brought their counsel to nought, that we RETURNED ALL OF US TO THE WALL, every one unto his work.” (Nehemiah 4:6-9; 14-15)
(D) – MORE SUBTLE PLOTS TO UNDERMINE NEHEMIAH AND THE WORK
“Now it came to pass, when Sanballat and Tobiah and Geshem the Arabian and the rest of our enemies heard that I had BUILDED THE WALL and that THERE WAS NO BREACH left therein; (though at that time I had not set up the doors upon the gates) That Sanballat and Geshem sent unto me saying, “Come let us meet together in some one of the villages in the plain of Ono.” But they thought to do me mischief.
And I sent messengers unto them, saying, “I am doing a GREAT WORK, so I cannot come down: why should the work cease, whilst I leave it and come down to you?” Yet they sent unto me four times after this sort; and I answered them after the same manner.” (Nehemiah 6:1-4)
(E) – PROPHETS OF GLOOM AND DOOM – (CONTINUED STRATEGIES TO DESTROY NEHEMIAH)
“Afterward I came unto the house of Shemaiah the son of Delaiah the son of Mehetabeel, who was shut up; and he said, “Let us meet together in the house of God, within the temple and let us shut the doors of the temple: for they will come to slay thee: yea, in the night will they come to slay thee.”
And I said, “Should such a man as I flee? And who is there, that, being as I am, would go into the temple to save his life? I will not go in.”
And lo, I perceived that God had not sent him; but that he pronounced this prophecy against me: for Tobiah and Sanballat had hired him. Therefore was he hired that I should be afraid and do so and sin and that they might have matter for an evil report, that they might reproach me.
My God, think thou upon Tobiah and Sanballat according to these their works and on the prophetess Noadiah and the rest of the prophets that would have put me in fear.” (Nehemiah 6;10-14)
(F) – GOD FINISHES THE WORK DESPITE NEHEMIAH’S ENEMIES
“So THE WALL WAS FINISHED in the twenty and fifth day of the month Elul, in fifty and two days.
And it came to pass, that when all our enemies heard thereof and all the heathen that were about us saw these things, they were much cast down in their own eyes: for they perceived that THIS WORK WAS WROUGHT OF GOD.” (Nehemiah 6:15-16)
Dear Reader, if the above Article has been useful, informative, edifying or interesting to you, you may also be interested in the following:
- Note 96 – ‘The Bridal Train’
- Note 119 – ‘Bring God Glory – Build With Excellence’
- Note 128 – ‘Tired, Weary And I Don’t Know What To Do’
- Note 174 – ‘Grace & Glory – The Lord Will Help Me’